Staring at an empty Chat window

It will be the definition of the lonely 21st century male. It reads like the title of an edgy piece of modern art, does it not? That's me right now, just sitting here staring at a chat window, wanting to send a message through the intertubes to a girl I find myself attracted to with an irrational intensity. I can't even say hi. Well, I have before, but I was ignored, yet something makes me want to try again. I know there's no point, and I know that my fawning over her is typical of pathetic, lonely types.

I've come to terms with being a pathetic, lonely type. I've come to terms with needyness as well. I just want her to know that for some strange reason, contrary to my typically logical way of thinking, I feel like I need her.

Doesn't matter. Doesn't matter now, really, and it definitely won't matter 5 years from now.

LOL, Wtf am I doing?

I don't know what I'm doing sometimes. There are entire days that just pass by and I can't recall what I did during them. Probably mostly sitting in front of a screen, numbing my mind with entertainment and random wiki articles.


Regardless, I think I'm happy, I mean, I feel alright about life, although I'm anxious to really get out there into the "real world" and do whatever it is that's going to make me happy. I'm also anxious to kill everyone and eat puppies, but that's another story entirely. 

I really just want a little bit of love and attention from the opposite sex right now. I'm a huge loser, so this is not very likely to occur. Ladies, do it as a favor to the rest of humanity. Consider the fact that you'd be preventing the formation of a sociopath cynic as payment for your morally responsible act. I laugh with increasing vigor at funny, misogynistic pictures on the internet as my neckbeard rage grows...


It grows, and grows, and grows.